Hello you,

It was a day 5 today so I barely saw you, which always sucks. I actually did my VHS ahead of time, and I understood it! This will never happen again. There’s so much stuff I need to do that I really don’t want to. Like superlatives, and returning stuff to the library and my Curtains bio, and asking you to hang out some time soon. Ughhh life. Life isn’t supposed to be this stressful anymore. What is this.

Today in Lit, we were talking about dramatic irony and stuff, and I’m assuming he showed you guys the same comic strip as he showed us. All I could think about the whole time was that maybe you were thinking that we were in the same situation as the people in the comic strip. I hope we are, not in the tragic dramatic irony way, but in the way where you like me and I can’t tell. You’re hard to read, which bothers me to no end. I want to be able to understand why you do things and what you want. It was very difficult to see that comic strip though. It was especially painful being in a room full of girls who mostly have never had boyfriends. Or ones they want to talk about anyway.

Well, I get to see you tomorrow. Unfortunately, I’ll also be presenting in Human Geo… ugh that class is not a thing. So many regrets at taking that class. Also, it’s my third time taking adventure and I still can’t tie the damn knots.

So I was sitting in the library today and you kept talking to Julie. And it’s not that I was jealous, because I don’t think you like Julie, it’s just that I really wanted to be making out with you then and your voice is really sexy and I want you to love me. And I’m obviously a huge mess. I should honest to god see a therapist. Or get friends who will listen. Or something. It’s not that my friends don’t, it’s just they’re always busy with speech and they don’t really like you I think and they probably don’t want to hear it. I need like someone that I am like “therapist friends” with. Someone who I get together with like once every week or two for coffee or lunch or something and for the first part, I just talk and talk and talk and don’t worry about being judged, and then for the second part they do the same. I mean, I seriously need that. No offense to this tumblr, but talking about things helps. I don’t know who I could do this with though. I’ll think about it.

Love you a ton,

Me